My heart’s desire is to be completely honest with God,
I will find rest when I have looked in every hidden part,
It is hard to hide anything in a broken heart,
Where everything is laid out in plain sight,
Every thought that I seek to claim as mine,
Is known completely and felt by God first,
But as my prayers touch Grace’s heart this morning,
I ask that my limited attempts at love will be heard,
My spirit searching for words of Eternity,
Are trusted to the blessing of Grace’s lovingkindness.
I love showing God my dreams and ideas,
Seeing my God hold them in holy awe,
Wonder the response at my human frailty,
Creation being blessed by my Creator’s response,
All this belongs to me as his chosen love one,
Brought out of a pit of hopeless darkness,
Fumbling around trying to make my own way,
The anxious pit in my stomach growing every day,
God saw all this confusion and still called me son,
I didn’t get what I deserved instead receiving life,
The most awkward embarrassment that I create,
Is looked on with a loving, knowing smile,
The smile that loves a child that is learning,
Silly mistakes are to become cherished memories,
Gentleness is expressing lovingkindness coming close,
What is this love? That can celebrate my weakness!
I want nothing to do with sinful behaviours,
Even in my middle age they still taunt me,
The words of hate are still flung in my direction,
But, my line in the sand is drawn by righteousness,
When enough is enough hatred is not too strong,
For the cruelty of what the arrogant bring to life
Opposition recognised for its hatred of God,
They need to be put in their place and know their fate
My heart is centred again this morning on Mercy,
The gifts that it brings to this anxious world,
That wants to suck my life into its death embrace,
Whereas the Spirit of God want to bring life,
Brought with the touch of blessedness,
That gives strength to move away from death’s clutch,
Find this prayer today God and bless it,
Know that my thoughts cannot find enough words,
To say how much my heart overflows with thanks,
Lord, may I trust today in love’s words,
May they be the only ones that escape my lips.