God knows my heart’s yearnings,
My seeking to follow him always,
I have nothing to hide from God,
My loyalty to him is unquestioned.

Hypocrisy gives with one hand and takes with the other,
Those who pretend to care but give with self interest,
They gather together their imaginary stories,
That mask their true intentions,
Trust is their most destructive weapon,
I am surrounded by the consequences of my loyalty.

I long for God’s words today,
My soul searches for my truest friend,
Where loyalty is our foundation,
Trust is found in God’s healing,
Disappointment’s wounds have cut deep,
But, God’s love brings a sure hope,
That a good heart will alway find its home.

Rejection’s pain is where my cry to God begins,
It’s deceptive words shout it’s painful message,
Seeking to gloat over it’s easy victories,
But, soon Rejection will face Truth,
Rejection will be defeated by belonging,
My heart entrusted to Grace’s care.

When I spend all night counting my faults,
God spends day and night whispering hope,
All of my failures are forgotten,
As my compassionate God forgives me,
He doesn’t know how to hold a grudge,
His heart seeks to restore my hope,
When Mercy’s voice is heard.

Rock bottom was my deepest valley,
I lost my way completely,
When I sought to find a friend,
My deepest trust disappeared like vapour,
Hate’s glare replacing love,
Contemptuous words beginning each day,
Seeking to uncover my painful wounds.

God’s face turned to my darkest distress,
Light shone on my uncovered wounds,
My ugliest sins were out in the open,
When there was nowhere to go,
I was brought back to home’s safety,
Love brought out the best in me,
Compassion grew in my heart,
My life is completely open to God’s truth,
Rescued from all my troubles,
Mercy the healing balm for all my sins.

Surrounded by love’s protection,
My life is completed,
By the refreshing sounds of hope,
The tough ascents through uncertainty,
Are crowned with the beautiful dawning,
That draws me to the Creator’s heart.

Opposition hears the loving words,
Spoken by Eternity to his beloved,
They are my tormentor’s nightly reminder,
Of the Creator’s care for his loyal child.

My reward is begins each day,
With the blessing of abundance,
Nothing can stop it from coming my way,
Love chases my every thought,
Finding it’s home in the loving words,
That has discovered the goodness in me,
My eternal inheritance of Grace’s kindness.

My pilgrim journey starts with hope,
Recognising my heart’s desire,
Taking my first steps to eternity,
Sometimes the uncertain path,
Needs Eternity’s guidance,
With each faltering step,
Complete trust is given,
To the source of all my joy,

My dear enemy loves to confuse,
He takes loyal devotion,
Turning it into destruction,
God isn’t distracted from loving,
Confusion’s foolishness is obvious,
Its path is full of empty promises,
Foolishness’ reward is disappointment,
For those who have pursued it,
Their legacy is meaningless,
Wisdom concludes with praise,
Anger is transformed by Love’s gaze,
Its daily assault completely disarmed,
Foolishness defeated by Wisdom’s victory shout.

Despair is the yawning chasm,
That swallows everything,
Its hunger is insatiable,
Devouring any goodness,
Destroying all hope.

Hope begins from my deepest despair,
Struggle birthed new possibilities,
My cries for help each night,
Were answered with a new dawn,
Remembering my youthful prayers
God’s love never forgets.

My daily longing is to hear God’s voice,
Learning to desire his will,
Knowing that failure is no longer possible,
My groans and tears heard,
Now, I live with complete confidence,
Each new step taken with the assurance,
That my path’s gifts belong to me.

Everywhere I look I can see God’s hand,
The Creator speaks to the humble heart,
The obvious is stated clearly,
In every beautiful creative detail,
Of this world that we call home,
Day after day the truth shines out,
Its light is radiant and trustworthy,

God’s honest conversation with me,
Always begins with truth,
His questions start with my heart,
And, where I place my trust,
There is no hidden agenda with God,
It’s all out in the open with Him,
A faithful life built on loving conversations,
Is what I desire above all else.

My heart is seeking God’s truth today,
Nothing tucked away for myself,
My life an expression of freedom,
That comes from complete honesty,
God began this beautiful conversation with me,
My life is completely dependent on his voice,
I love each word he speaks to me,
God’s loving acceptance of my humble words,
Is the first step of my daily worship.

My first love is always secure,
God’s loyalty protects me daily,
Even when inundated by hate,
He stood by his beloved child.

When my blackest depression,
Surrounded me with its death words,
I had given up all hope,
But, God was listening to my heart,
He never forgot his adored son.

I saw God’s awesome power,
Expressed in holy anger,
The solid wall of hate,
That felt unbreakable,
The words draining my spirit,
To the point of wanting to die,
It all quickly crumbled,
Love wielded all it’s might,
With its holy loving whisper,
Discovering in me all what is good,
And beginning a conversation,
Starting the truth that was always there.

My heart is wide open to God’s call,
He hears my pleas for help,
Condemnation wants me to lay awake,
Adding up my failures over and over,
I want to hear my God’s approval,
Letting me know everything will be ok.

My sleepless nights are a reminder,
Of what injustice can do to loyalty,
But, I desired God above all else,
When I found the deepest pit to fall in,
And the stones kept getting thrown,
You saw my brokenhearted pain,
And, wrapped me in your safe arms.

I have looked contempt in the eyes,
Seen it’s selfish grasping for self importance,
That has no consideration for anyone else,
Havoc abounds for those in his way,
Eager to inflict the final death blow,
On those who dare to speak truth.

God’s word is about to be unleashed,
It will cut off every lie told,
Contempt will die on his own sword,
His lies will become his worst enemies,
When truth has the final word,
My deepest longing is for God’s truth,
That gives me my words for this day.

I have found God’s safe arms,
In the midst of a thousand hurts,
Caused by the painful pricks,
Of the thousands of cheap trinkets,
That I thought were my pleasure.

Temporary satisfactions quickly fade,
When they are faced by truth.
Joy is found with God’s words,
To his beloved child who seeks loyalty.

He found me in my despair,
And, brought me to my deep gladness,
Then I heard Eternity’s words,
Speaking in Love’s whisper,
Words of enduring endearment,
That become my completed joy.

My life is founded on eternal promise,
Despair’s bottomless death spiral,
Is transformed into a path to possibility,
The way imagined from Creation’s beginning,
Finding its fulfillment in a shared love,
Creator and creation exploring love forever

Truth has become fully formed in my life,
Everything that was left behind in success’ rush,
Is replaced by riches that cannot be bankrupted,
My life a testimony to the miracle of restoration,
Those who wanted to take everything left with nothing,
While abundance is the only burden that i carry.

The tears that I cried in my darkest nights,
Have watered the hope seeds sown during my despair,
Now my harvest of faithful love is overflowing,
My soul touched by the love of good friends,
Loyalty the balm for every sad word of betrayal.

Blessed are the souls that cry for the poor,
Those who can forget about self pitying laments,
Those who hold visions of eternity as their guide,
Those who seek goodness in every conversation,
A song will replace the sobs of lost friendships,
Love gathers all my sorrows and transforms each sadness into a blessing
My out of tune voice now singing a beautiful melody of hope.

I am unapologetic for my first love,
My desire for God present in every conversation,
It’s the gift that forms every thought I have,
The reward that concludes the final word,
The beginning and the end of who I am,
Is cherished with Eternal Love’s approval.

I will no longer be bound by selfish intentions,
Instead I am confident to claim all God’s gifts,
Even when hate words are thrown at me,
Help my trust to stand firm despite their anger.

Test my heart this morning Lord,
Bring blessing to my God centred plans,
Help me to cast aside every distraction,
Temptations belonging to this world are obvious,
Open my eyes Lord to their easy deceit,
So that I can choose my God path,
The one that brings my heart to restful peace,
My life centred in faith while surrounded by anxious activity.

In the lonely wastelands of aloneness,
A million barbs painfully forgetting any kindness,
My life a plaything for those who wield power,
Everywhere I look there are painful reminders,
That the hardest battle is always fought within,
Its tumult sweeps over my head swallowing everything,

Healing comes when I let go of my last resort,
Leaving behind my final vestige of shaky trust,
The alpha of this world is the beginning of hope,
Yesterday’s harsh memories dim quickly,
The trap of failure’s repetition released,
When I shift my gaze to what lies ahead,
The way behind is closed forever,
Today and tomorrow’s promise offering hope,
My day begins and ends with celebrating my rescue.

My final thoughts tonight are turned to heaven,
The day is almost completed, tomorrow is yet to arrive,
I long for a life that asks the lasting questions,
Questions like; What can I find that is beautiful here?
Or, What is the gift that is in this conversation?
And, the realisation of how precious is the time that we spend together,
I desire to see in everyone’s eyes their true soul.

I pray that I will resist the temptations of pride,
The arrogance that takes and then repays with vindictive greed,
The one who never has enough,
Talking about love but delivering hate freely,
Mercy poured His healing waters on my life,
My day ending remembering God’s blessing given to me.

Prayer is my safe haven each morning,
This morning I join the faithful choir,
Turning our thoughts firstly to God,
I wait this morning in eager expectation.
For the words that God wants to say to me.

Obedience is my act of faithfulness this morning,
Even though my life is scattered in busy activity,
I bring all my uncertainties about today to Him,
Choosing to stand with those who want this too,
Belonging to those who know their poverty,
Yet are willing to share their Creator’s broken heart.

I pray that I will bring peace to the lives that touch mine today,
I will not be afraid of the thought of rest,
Even though the world demands frantic activity,
I trust my life will be a witness to waiting with God,
My family will be well cared for in the midst of a thousand temptations of selfish desires,
I will love courageously knowing its painful risk,
My gifts given with no reserve, no expectations,
Seeking blessing for all those that I serve,
Come peace today, find a loyal heart this morning.
Amen

When life crowds in to overpower hope,
And, I am frantically seeking my escape route,
I know where to find the help that I need,
I will forget the shallow promises that offer everything but do nothing,
Instead I will remember God’s kind loving words.

He will be with you during your worst days,
When the fog of despair flows in and blocks the view,
During your sleepless nights He will be there too,
When your thoughts won’t stop rushing around,
Their busyness not allowing sleep to bring rest,
Day or night he is waiting to help out,
Always ready to bring calm to a turbulent life.

I shelter in God’s caring gaze,
Knowing that everything that I do and say is cherished,
He doesn’t ever let up in his pursuit of loving me,
Creator of the world focussed on my on my life,
He knows what my heart really belongs to,
Watching and waiting to bless me in all I do.

Deceit is the brick of betrayal forming a fragile foundation,
On which a wall of hate is built on my sorrows,
My cry is to God to help me understand, Why?

God will show the easy path of betrayal it’s fate,
Each lying sharp barb will return to haunt soon enough,
God is with me and we will not give up on truth.

I make my home in a beautiful green field,
Next to the quiet lake that witnesses beautiful sunsets,
When I am surrounded by beauty I am encouraged to seek the beautiful response,
Here I stand with my God,
Sharing the connection that belongs to a trusted friend,
Talking about our love for peace,
He shelters me from the hater’s vicious attacks,
I am ready for anything trusting God for everything.

Gratitude is the first note in my song of happiness,
Eternal love is my wall of sound.
Surrounding me with those who sing and laugh with me,
Eternal love is my song to sing.

When my back was pressed against a wall
that offered no further retreat,
I had no place to go, no friend to rely on,
He offered me a safe haven,
Reaching into my soul parts that ached the most,
Condemnation spat at me at the start of the day,
Despair the parting gift to end work’s agony,
Encouraged to die in my darkest moment,
I was ready to take the most awful of advice,
I believed the lies that confused all truth,
Disorientated by the shifting sands under my feet,
My best defence found in my humiliation,
Left with nothing was the beginning of fresh horizons.

Trust no one but love abundantly,
Is the wisdom that comes from a life shaped by disappointment,
My focus is on Mercy not revenge,
Forgiveness conquers hatred every time,
It’s no easy victory that comes from choosing love first,
The corpse of hatred left to rot on it’s own,
Here I stand a living witness to what love can do.

Rejection was the final straw,
But, also the new beginning,
All my despair wrapped up and tossed away,
A new foundation of hope became my guiding light,
Each day drawing me to new ways to praise.

God’s life touching mine is blessing felt,
All the family are joined as one in this blessing,
We hold our heads high as we walk in step,
Unity is declaration of our shared desire,
To praise God without holding back,
To live life in total abandonment to God,
To love abundantly holding nothing back.

Praise is the heartbeat of life,
Eternity lifted high on forgiveness’ shoulders,
Carried along in open hearted celebration,
The crowd gets bigger with each step forward,
The thrill of this shared adventure ,
Sending a shiver through my body,
I have joined Eternity’s party,
And this is now my life forever,
Thank you Lord,
I am always grateful for this chance to love you.

Praise has one true name,
Love declares to everyone that I know it,
There is one true source of faithful friendship,
And, I am one of his closest companions.

Everyone is rushing around trying to create truth,
Making up new gods every day,
Each built on the dead bones of the previous god,
They are the outcome of stupidity’s foolishness,
Their only response to pain is ignorance,
Their understanding limited to blank stares,
Compassion betrayed by the pursuit of selfish gain.

Eternity’s close knit family know about trust,
Known in the truest form of the rescued soul,
When I was left dangling on the cliff’s edge,
I grasped for anyone to reach down to me,
Desperation sought any false hope,
It was God’s hand that lifted me from the precipice,
Aloneness was sheltered by total trust,

I was never forgotten by God,
He knows the lessons that I needed most,
Using every painful reminder of failure,
As the way to restore the broken life.

Love seeks to discover the gift of abundance,
Most of my day is spent counting my blessings,
Knowing that nothing is trustworthy in this life,
Except what is promised from Eternity’s love,
Love’s voice will not be silenced by death’s wishes,
The hollow croaks of revenge’s threats,
Are overwhelmed by praise’s victory shouts,
Celebrations are all around me,
Welcoming me to join in the party.