Lord you have heard my sobbing regrets,
I know that I am not good enough,
To speak to you,
I have spent night after night,
Counting my sins,
Blaming myself for everything,
There seemed to be no end to my failures.
The hater’s voice is venomous,
Oozing sweet tasting poison,
While each day he makes up his hate list,
Twisting nice words to line up me, the target,
My loyalty used to destroy me,
Confidences used to conspire against me,
Each day finding new ways to bring me down,
Attack upon attack,
Nothing was sacred,
He used everything to try to destroy me.
Now I have complete confidence,
God is sorting it all out
He has heard each hate word,
Felt every one of my family’s hurts,
Justice will be wielded,
The Hater will face God’s reality,
Arrogance will see Humility,
It will bring the Hater to his knees,
The great reversal will begin,
For Hate it will be a frightening journey to Truth.
My fears are now my strength,
My brokenness once mocked by the Hater,
These are my greatest comforts,
I was so close to dying,
Stupidly I thought it was the answer,
My daily regrets,
Are now my praises,
Thanks to you God,
I am now living,
An example of your power,
Demonstrated through human weakness.