Confusion is my best description of this life,
Sadnesses abound,
When happiness is my desire,
I long to see a clear path,
That takes me directly to happiness,
Instead I am diverted by regrets,
I cannot see the next step,
Lost is where I found myself.
My deepest unplumbed thoughts,
Are laid bare to you God,
I don’t trust my own heart,
And, its deceitful truth,
My tears of confusion,
Are the only words I can speak.
Lord, take my weeping, sobbing heart,
Open it to your love,
I need to Rest,
Opposition doesn’t understand,
Painful words screaming at me,
God is not hearing me,
He will let me fail.
My stomach churning,
As this new day begins,
Uncertainty is my reality,
I long for God’s voice today,
To speak with clarity,
From the fog emerging truth,
Praise for what will become,
Trust transforming tears.