When I was really down,
Even my closest friend deserted me,
Starting in the early hours of the morning,
My days went long into the night,
A good night’s sleep was my deepest desire,
But, I wondered if I would ever know rest,
I lay awake fearing the next attack,
Each night a fearful recollection of the lies spoken,
Anticipating the next onslaught of hatred’s stare,
Each day facing the contemptuous glare,
I crumbled under the strain,
My soul bleeding tears of sorrow,
At the betrayal of my trust.
The daily raids of terror,
The barrage of hate words,
Were the favourite weapons,
Unleashed in a daily “friendly” fire,
My life was shattered,
The word shards digging deep,
My life’s cry to God was, “mercy,”
I wanted the pain to go away.
My God, My God, why did I forsake you?
For a while I thought I was my salvation,
I was wrong!
Today my life is a witness to your strength,
I love to see Justice in action,
My voice is no longer silent,
I speak words of Love,
That bring terror to the godless,
My love shows up their selfishness.
The liar’s daily shame is displayed publicly,
Poverty is his selfish lust,
Hunger for money thwarted by God,
His riches are for the poor and broken hearted.
Abundance is my truth,
Life is lived with strength,
Discovering the fullness of Eternity’s love,
My life a witness to the power,
Of restoring, peaceful trust.